bitteeinbit
08-11-2011, 11:10 AM
Or rather I should say, a fear of commitment. I'm almost 26 and have started to realize I have a sort of fear of commitment when it comes to jobs.
My current job path so far has been this:
-Various student jobs while in high school
-Went to Germany as an exchange student
-Did a year of uni, dropped out to go to Afghanistan with the military (3 years/7 total in the military)
-Spent a year travelling/working abroad
-Worked the rigs this summer
-Now back in school with one year to go
My old dream was to work for CSIS or Foreign Affairs. But I've now come to the realization that I have a fear of commitment. Not only in my romantic relationships (but that's another story) but mostly in life in general. If I start work at DEFAIT/CSIS or FA, I'm sure I would like it but then quickly get tied down somewhere and find I'll be "tied up". I know people switch careers all the time nowadays, but I still find it weird. Many of my friends have long graduated and have steady jobs or have married already.
I've done a lot of living: spent 3 years of my life living in foreign countries, speak 6 languages (4 fluently, 2 passable) and have lived experiences few others get to live. But at the end of the line I find myself stuck in a rut. If I don't get a career relatively soon, as in after graduating, I'll always be "behind" in life (pay, benefits, wife/kids etc). But if I do get one, I'll feel like I'm trapped. I've always been a freebird of sorts but I'm realizing there are also some drawbacks which aren't felt now but will be down the road.
So I'm just wondering if others feel the same way about settling down. We each have different views on life, work and all, but I've been wondering about this lately so I just wanted to throw this out there and see the responses. If it sounds like I'm overly worried, I'm not really, I've just been pondering about this lately.
My current job path so far has been this:
-Various student jobs while in high school
-Went to Germany as an exchange student
-Did a year of uni, dropped out to go to Afghanistan with the military (3 years/7 total in the military)
-Spent a year travelling/working abroad
-Worked the rigs this summer
-Now back in school with one year to go
My old dream was to work for CSIS or Foreign Affairs. But I've now come to the realization that I have a fear of commitment. Not only in my romantic relationships (but that's another story) but mostly in life in general. If I start work at DEFAIT/CSIS or FA, I'm sure I would like it but then quickly get tied down somewhere and find I'll be "tied up". I know people switch careers all the time nowadays, but I still find it weird. Many of my friends have long graduated and have steady jobs or have married already.
I've done a lot of living: spent 3 years of my life living in foreign countries, speak 6 languages (4 fluently, 2 passable) and have lived experiences few others get to live. But at the end of the line I find myself stuck in a rut. If I don't get a career relatively soon, as in after graduating, I'll always be "behind" in life (pay, benefits, wife/kids etc). But if I do get one, I'll feel like I'm trapped. I've always been a freebird of sorts but I'm realizing there are also some drawbacks which aren't felt now but will be down the road.
So I'm just wondering if others feel the same way about settling down. We each have different views on life, work and all, but I've been wondering about this lately so I just wanted to throw this out there and see the responses. If it sounds like I'm overly worried, I'm not really, I've just been pondering about this lately.