Hakkola
10-29-2002, 03:28 PM
This is like last resort because I'm thinking about this like 24/7
Here's what happened, I had this gf for awhile, we broke up for whatever reasons, we kinda got back together for awhile, we were more then just friends, and almost got back together a couple times but because of some stupid little things she kept thinking i was a player...
Some background, she's 20, living at residence for her college, I'm 18, 19 in a couple months, living at home, going to a different college.
She had told me on two occasions that she didn't want to talk to me again, and then the next day called me to hang out...
So we were more then friends, and one night we're hangin out and stuff happens, this was usual in our relationship. This was a friday night, and then i don't talk to her all weekend, and on monday I find out she met some guy she kinda liked, she always got jealous when I talked about other girls even friends, and now suddenly she finds someone she likes... So it's Monday now, and we go to work out like we usually do, and hang out for a little bit after, when i decide for whatever dumbass reason to tell her I don't wanna hang out with her anymore, because i still had feelings for her etc... She had done this to me twice.
So she makes me feel really damn bad about it, which is fine because it was stupid, i tried apologizing, even sang one of my songs for her on her answering machine, this was how i got her back(kinda), the first time. She didn't want to talk about it. It was a week away from her b-day. So on her b-day i sent her an e-mail saying happy birthday and whatnot, she replied saying thanks but nothing really more, so i said i'd leave her alone.
That was a month and a half ago, and I see her around the city sometimes and it's like i can't even look at her, because I'm not sure if she wants to see me, one day i was in the benz parked with some girls in the car, i look up, and i see her, she looks at me( the car stands out) and i had to look down, one of the girls i was with was telling me she was staring... but i couldn't look.
Then the other day i had to go to the store where she works with my buddy, i knew she'd be working so i didn't go in, even though my friend said she probably wasn't there. Turns out she was working at the only open till.
Having to avoid her and all this crap is really bugging me 'cuz i miss her a lot, her friendship, not just the relationship, i really miss talking to her and having her as a friend and I feel terrible for what I did. So I've been fighting the urge for a long damn time to send her an e-mail or call her, but i can't stop thinking about it, wtf should i do? I've even been with another girl and still i can't get her out of my mind...
Here's what happened, I had this gf for awhile, we broke up for whatever reasons, we kinda got back together for awhile, we were more then just friends, and almost got back together a couple times but because of some stupid little things she kept thinking i was a player...
Some background, she's 20, living at residence for her college, I'm 18, 19 in a couple months, living at home, going to a different college.
She had told me on two occasions that she didn't want to talk to me again, and then the next day called me to hang out...
So we were more then friends, and one night we're hangin out and stuff happens, this was usual in our relationship. This was a friday night, and then i don't talk to her all weekend, and on monday I find out she met some guy she kinda liked, she always got jealous when I talked about other girls even friends, and now suddenly she finds someone she likes... So it's Monday now, and we go to work out like we usually do, and hang out for a little bit after, when i decide for whatever dumbass reason to tell her I don't wanna hang out with her anymore, because i still had feelings for her etc... She had done this to me twice.
So she makes me feel really damn bad about it, which is fine because it was stupid, i tried apologizing, even sang one of my songs for her on her answering machine, this was how i got her back(kinda), the first time. She didn't want to talk about it. It was a week away from her b-day. So on her b-day i sent her an e-mail saying happy birthday and whatnot, she replied saying thanks but nothing really more, so i said i'd leave her alone.
That was a month and a half ago, and I see her around the city sometimes and it's like i can't even look at her, because I'm not sure if she wants to see me, one day i was in the benz parked with some girls in the car, i look up, and i see her, she looks at me( the car stands out) and i had to look down, one of the girls i was with was telling me she was staring... but i couldn't look.
Then the other day i had to go to the store where she works with my buddy, i knew she'd be working so i didn't go in, even though my friend said she probably wasn't there. Turns out she was working at the only open till.
Having to avoid her and all this crap is really bugging me 'cuz i miss her a lot, her friendship, not just the relationship, i really miss talking to her and having her as a friend and I feel terrible for what I did. So I've been fighting the urge for a long damn time to send her an e-mail or call her, but i can't stop thinking about it, wtf should i do? I've even been with another girl and still i can't get her out of my mind...