Covid-19/Mental Health Anyone Else Having Trouble?

My condolences. :(

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Originally Posted by Kloubek

Just so you don't think I'm ignoring you... :)

I do e-commerce. Started out in graphic design, moved to user experience and marketing deployment and metrics, then project management and eventually executive management. There aren't a lot of executive e-commerce positions here, and most project manager positions want certification, which I don't have. Then specialist positions (marketing campaign management, etc) want people who have devoted their careers to those specialist positions and not a jack of all trades like myself. I guess I worked myself into a relatively narrow niche.

I have toyed with starting my own thing, but business startup requires money and that isn't exactly in plentiful supply right now.

Anyway, no need to respond... just wanted to answer your question.

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Shout out from another dude in the world of ecom! My wife and I were supposed to start a new business last spring and then covid hit, our funding got wiped out and we were suddenly both unemployed after shutting down Kacz' Kids. I couldnt find anything all spring summer. I was out of work for 8 months not to mention watching our savings dwindle to almost nothing. Then I started to dabble in freelance and my side business is taking off. I gave up on looking for jobs in Calgary and started looking for work right across Canada. I lucked out and found a company who is implementing a digital sales channel thats based out of BC, but they are allowing me to work remote in Calgary for the time being. It has been extremely hard, knowing you have all these skills and yet no one calls you for an interview. Keep looking dude.

Big Rock is looking for an ecom manager.... https://www.linkedin.com/jobs/view/m...alSubdomain=ca

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Originally Posted by tonytiger55

My sister in London lost her battle with lung cancer last Sunday.
I had to drive to my elder sisters home here and break the news to her, I had to explain that she had been sick. It came as a shock to her.
I saw my sister last xmas and its a shock how the cancer spread so fast.

I drove home after. That first night home alone and trying to go to sleep was horrible. The darkness became this weird heavy mist.

It is a very complicated situation.
Im trying to manage my parents over the phone who are very very sad.
I spent over 26 years trying to bridge peace for my late sister in various ways. I tried to put some plans in place for aftercare for my late sisters kids. But sometimes people are far to gone into fairy land with crazy ideas. I ask myself, what more could I have done or done differently?
I tried so hard today as a final resort to bridge peoples differences. This was the last attempt. People really don't understand the consequences of their actions. Ive helped so many clients in my professional life. Yet it pains me to see my loved ones make stupid decisions and yet I can't do anything.
I was mentally exhausted by the end of the day today. I had to make myself a drink with a triple shot to take the edge off.

I can't even go to say goodbye and give my final respects to my late sister. I can't even visit friends here.

My sibling went off the rails. I watched powerlessly someone treat them so badly and change them for worse over 26 years. Then having to watch them fade away into cancer and descend into madness.

If you have a sibling, child, give them a call, a hug. Keep that connection, its really important. There are some dark people out there that will rob them of their minds.

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So sorry for your loss.

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Originally Posted by tonytiger55

My sister in London lost her battle with lung cancer last Sunday.
I had to drive to my elder sisters home here and break the news to her, I had to explain that she had been sick. It came as a shock to her.
I saw my sister last xmas and its a shock how the cancer spread so fast.

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So sorry to hear, my sincere condolences. It's so stressful dealing with family drama, added to a loss can really make things worse.
Hang in there!

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Originally Posted by tirebob

Yus!

So since I started this thread way back when I could not stop thinking about losing everything I had ever worked for and having to potentially move back in with my mom at 50, things have most definitely improved in ways I did not think would have been possible.

First, the business is surviving and while ain't nobody getting rich, we are keeping everyone employed and the vast majority of our clients have been fantastically supportive of the way we do things and some of the simple changes we have implemented dealing with covid.

Second, in a strange twist of fate, all this covid has led me to a goal I was working towards I did not think would be possible for many more years to come, and that is to get get my ass off the front lines of the business and work from behind the scenes at my home office. It has been glorious! I have not worked in store since the beginning of June when I kinda lost it a bit and told the guys I needed to get out or shoot myself in the face. I was scared as shit about it but my business partner and crew stepped up amazingly and I haven't looked back! I didn't know if I was going to be able to pull it off but looking back I wish I did this a decade ago. I probably work more now in actual working hours than I ever did, but I am happy again and taking the business in directions I have always wanted to go and am feeling good about trying to make the changes that will help us cope with future issues out of our control such as the covid wrench we are all facing this year.

Third, because my wife has always been a stay at home from day one of our moving in together, 24 years later of being out of the house 9 to 14 hours a day I was not sure how well our relationship would fare, but now being under the same roof 24 hours a day and happily I can report that we are definitely soul mates and things are awesome! A full six months into this and we are both so much happier together than we ever were apart all those hours.

Anyhow, I am not trying to rub anything in to those who are still battling mental health troubles of any kind, but I hope more I am showing that there definitely is light at the end of the dark tunnel and you just gotta try and get up every day and make the changes you need to that will help you get there. If any of you ever need an ear to bend, please do not hesitate to ask any one of us to be there for you! Beyond members and the board in general have done so much for me that I can't even describe and it/they/we can help you as well if you chose to let it/them/us... I am 100% living proof of this.

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I don't want to call it a blessing in disguise because Covid is absolutely horrible but it really forced me to look from within and do some real deep internal work. I had no idea so many things were messing with me but I've confronted it and sorted through the mess and am a much better person today. I ignored my body's check engine light for so long.

Things will get better! Stay strong and hang in there everyone!!

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Originally Posted by tonytiger55

My sister in London lost her battle with lung cancer last Sunday.
I had to drive to my elder sisters home here and break the news to her, I had to explain that she had been sick. It came as a shock to her.
I saw my sister last xmas and its a shock how the cancer spread so fast.

I drove home after. That first night home alone and trying to go to sleep was horrible. The darkness became this weird heavy mist.

It is a very complicated situation.
Im trying to manage my parents over the phone who are very very sad.
I spent over 26 years trying to bridge peace for my late sister in various ways. I tried to put some plans in place for aftercare for my late sisters kids. But sometimes people are far to gone into fairy land with crazy ideas. I ask myself, what more could I have done or done differently?
I tried so hard today as a final resort to bridge peoples differences. This was the last attempt. People really don't understand the consequences of their actions. Ive helped so many clients in my professional life. Yet it pains me to see my loved ones make stupid decisions and yet I can't do anything.
I was mentally exhausted by the end of the day today. I had to make myself a drink with a triple shot to take the edge off.

I can't even go to say goodbye and give my final respects to my late sister. I can't even visit friends here.

My sibling went off the rails. I watched powerlessly someone treat them so badly and change them for worse over 26 years. Then having to watch them fade away into cancer and descend into madness.

If you have a sibling, child, give them a call, a hug. Keep that connection, its really important. There are some dark people out there that will rob them of their minds.

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Fk I am so sorry to hear. My best bud lost his mom 3 weeks back and it hit him so fkn hard. It also devastated me but I can not imagine what he went through.

I've never felt a spiritual connection like what I've gone through this past year. I am really fkn fortunate to be in the position I am.

Sincerest condolences to you are your family Tony... Never an easy thing to deal with.

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Originally Posted by tonytiger55

My sister in London lost her battle with lung cancer last Sunday.
I had to drive to my elder sisters home here and break the news to her, I had to explain that she had been sick. It came as a shock to her.
I saw my sister last xmas and its a shock how the cancer spread so fast.

I drove home after. That first night home alone and trying to go to sleep was horrible. The darkness became this weird heavy mist.

It is a very complicated situation.
Im trying to manage my parents over the phone who are very very sad.
I spent over 26 years trying to bridge peace for my late sister in various ways. I tried to put some plans in place for aftercare for my late sisters kids. But sometimes people are far to gone into fairy land with crazy ideas. I ask myself, what more could I have done or done differently?
I tried so hard today as a final resort to bridge peoples differences. This was the last attempt. People really don't understand the consequences of their actions. Ive helped so many clients in my professional life. Yet it pains me to see my loved ones make stupid decisions and yet I can't do anything.
I was mentally exhausted by the end of the day today. I had to make myself a drink with a triple shot to take the edge off.

I can't even go to say goodbye and give my final respects to my late sister. I can't even visit friends here.

My sibling went off the rails. I watched powerlessly someone treat them so badly and change them for worse over 26 years. Then having to watch them fade away into cancer and descend into madness.

If you have a sibling, child, give them a call, a hug. Keep that connection, its really important. There are some dark people out there that will rob them of their minds.

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It's hard enough losing someone you love when the relationships were good and when there could be a proper funeral. I can't imagine how this feels. Truly sorry for your loss.

Thank you for the kind words everyone. It is very challenging.
Also thank you to the few who private messaged and reached out for a call. It means a lot.
We have a great community here.

Condolences, Tony. Losing a sibling is brutally difficult at the best of times, so I can only imagine how difficult these times are for you, all things considered.

Fuck. Wee it's a slippery slope to crazy when you start wondering if it's cognitive dissonance - or if the world has gone nucking futz.

I need a fucking vacation. Anyone recommend a unit besides plc? Those 30 units suck.
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Sorry to hear that Andyman.

How are things with everyone? I have been doing pretty well until early 2021. Thinking back couple weeks before C our family were in Maui, including my mom and MIL. Find that now my wife and I need to show gratitude for the little blessings we have rather than things we don’t have, or the restrictions. Booked some camping dates and hope to get out and enjoy the warmer weather.

Being an extrovert finding it hard not able to meet up with families. The times I do get to talk to my neighbours I truly enjoy.

Work had been good. Enjoying WFH. Slated to be back to the office early September.

Frankly not great man.

Not handling 3rd wave as well as last 2 waves. stress eating a lot. gain back all the weight that I loss during the last 14 months.

Taking on old hobbies again to keep my mind busy. I can really tell how exhausted I am as my short term memory and my ability to focus is completely shot. I am a lot more irritable and have a tendency to be a bit short dealing with people too.

Finding it harder to sleep in. Dogs keep waking up earlier, so I am as well. Getting less sleep, sitting around doing nothing more. Finding it hard to stay strict with home workouts. Tired of cooking, tired of takeout. Just a general fatigue.

Sleep has been poor but that’s pretty standard. Feeling extra stressed about money for weird reasons.

I think it is more stressful but the nicer weather and more daylight seems to help.

I don't sleep in as much lately, but that is ok. As long as you get enough sleep in general.

I find doing a bit around the house keeps me happy, whether it is just keeping the house clean or doing some chores so it's not like I did "nothing" today. Small home improvements here and there, some gardening in the backyard, etc...

For the first time since this started, I'm feeling less great about it. Largely due to work starting at 5:30-6am and not finishing until 6-7pm. It was a big perk being able to spend more time with my kids, but as of late I've been seeing them about the same as I did when I was working downtown haha. Also was really looking forward to golf, and the government fucking with that was a bit disappointing. Overall not too bad though, could be worse.

I’d agree that shits pretty grim right now.

Wife tells me my anger and temper (not directed towards here) has gotten worse the past several month. And I’d agree, seem to get mega-annoyed at the smallest of things… not really sure why. And like firebane mentioned above my short term memory and ability to concentrate is all messed. Like totally fucked up. What’s up with that?

Haven’t even moved the summer cars yet and frankly have no desire at all, which is not the case normally. Hope the nicer weather and more vaccines can start to get us back to normal. I can’t wait to get together with the guys and get just shittered and have a good time.