Today i ran into my high school crush, well, actually i liked her since elementary/Jr.High, my biggest regret was that i didn't have the backbone to ask her out to grad when all her and my friends kinda expected us to go as a pair ... it was in the air, everyone could kinda see we liked each other
so today on my way to a dead end date, i stopped by at the bank, and lo and behold she walks in after me (havent seen her for 6 years and she's still pretty as ever, might i add)... so i instantly semi-blew off my date (rescheduled to meet just b4 the movie instead of hanging out for a few hrs and then watch the movie) and took charge of my lucky situational break and asked her out to coffee, after the bank we went to bestbuy (she wanted to buy a new ipod)...
Anyways over coffee she asked if i was still dating the girl i was with 3 Christmases ago in the mall (ran into each other in the mall it was like a 30sec conversation, can you say "Awkward!"), answer was no, we broke up soon after that, been single since... oddly enough i never asked her back if she was single (something we talked about kinda gave me the vibe that she was single, not 100% though)
we talked for something like 2 hours (i think, didn't look at the time) and eventually i had to go, we exchanged numbers and that was that... i hope she doesn't take it as a bad sign that i wasn't interested in whether she was single or not (i just assumed she was single).
I didn't want to come on too strong or show too much interest, so we generally talked about what we've been up to, I didn't ask about her relationship status cuz i figure i'll use that as my ticket to that subject the next time we talk (gotta save some seeds for next season's harvest right?? haha)
the big question is, should i go down this path? does she only see me as a friend since (well you know.. that whole "once she puts u under the "friend category", forget about anything more" deal) since we've known each other for so long... Will i ruin a good friendship? OR! OR! Will i regret it for the rest of my life?!?, kinda like how i regret not asking her to grad, is the universe pitying my love life and giving me a second chance???
Donno , its been on my mind all night, i just needed to get it out semi-anonymously ie not Facebook