Just to hurt me with my first GF when I was 19, she invited over her ex BF one night, which was at least twice my size as he was a big burly construction worker. She fucked him on the bed when I was at her place. I cried on the couch, there wasn't anything I could do really as a scrawny snot nosed kid. She knew that would destroy me, so thats why she did it. Im not exactly "lacking" in that department either FTWTW. To this day I'll never understand why. I loved her beyond bits and was always there for her, always.... not so much as a "nice guy" but as a loving BF. Yeah, so I hated girls for many many long years after that, as I was quite hurt by that in its entirely. So right after that, I became entirely suicidal, and a vicious alcoholic.
Only in the last few years have I gotten back into the dating game, even then its been absolutely minimal. That happened 13 years ago, but Im still quite upset over that. Even so? that was a drop in the bucket for all the hurt and pain I endured with her. Like I can go on and on, only I wont. It was just non existent nothing in terms of what happened, which was honestly nothing in terms of everything else abuse wise.
I dont know, I always grew up believing relationships were about absolutely loving the other person, through their faults and attributes. Its like, "great what else can we do to push towards eachothers goals? lets find a way to make it happen." Doing that? what wrong can come from that? seriously. The coolest part to me was always finding ways to make that even more possible with gifts along the way that make that happen. The cool part here was growing to see what can happen when new challenges can happen en route. As its always epicly intriguing to see what can happen in the midst of these learning periods.
Sure it sure destroyed me when doing just that amounted to everything that happened. Dont know, its all quite foreign to me now, but shit, Ive been single ever since, I often dont ever tell that story, but thats what happened.
Last edited by Graham_A_M; 07-11-2015 at 04:15 AM.
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