I really need to do this more often because there are a lot of really good people on here that make the community what it is. To everyone who does this, thanks. I've been on this forum for quite some time now, and albeit I can be cynical, judgmental, opinionated, and well... a dick, I know most of the people I know personally from here I get along with fine. And those people know I will always try to help out a Beyonder.
But there is one person on here that really stands out from the crowd. He chose to remain anonymous, so I unfortunately can not name who it is. But hopefully he reads this here as I know he is a Beyonder.
What you did, I fail to see a way to repay you. For the longest time I've been lost. My boss continues to commend me for a job well done, everyone I work with is happy with my performance, but I consistently feel that I'm just terrible at my job and lazy.
I mean I have this ability you see, where I can multi-task at work quite well. So this leaves me with the ability to surf Beyond every now and then. But god does this make me feel like shit. It's hard going through life knowing you've completed your work or waiting on something and being left with a "you lazy bastard" taste in your mouth.
As you can probably guess, I've been quite depressed about this. But then this saint came along and decided to save me from my eternal pit of despair. You were kind enough to write an anonymous email to a manager in my office.
It kind of sucks that you didn't even do a bit of research to find my actual manager, I mean you kind of ruined the surprise. You emailed a client manager from another department that I hardly talk to, so instead of getting the surprise that will change my life from my boss, I got it from my boss' boss, my boss' boss' boss, and the company lawyer. But it's okay man, it really is. Good news is always good news no matter who you hear it from. I needed change.
So I thank you. I thank you with all my heart. You know why? You showed me that this corporate world really is not for me. You further drove my values that I hold dear to myself closer to my heart. You made me feel better about so many decisions I have made in my life. You showed me that I need change. Leave the asinine corporate world where you can get in shit from what could just be made up. So thank you you miserable piece of shit. If I'm going to hell, you're sure as shit coming with me.
Not only did you find it appropriate to write a letter to my boss, but not even to the right fucking one. So instead of MY boss figuring out what a suitable punishment would be, I HAD ALL OF FUCKING CORPORATE COME DOWN ON ME. Fuck you you piece of shit.
How I deem it appropriate to carry myself in any method IS OF MY OWN FUCKING DOING. How I carry myself in here and in real life doesn't differ too much, people can attest to that. So how I decide to label myself at what work place and what I do on MY FREE FUCKING TIME is just that... MY TIME.
I don't think this has ever happened on Beyond. But I consider myself a pretty nice guy. There are lots of people on here that will back me up on that. Just because you got your damn panties in a knot about some fucking comment I made online does not give you a reason to try and ruin someones life.
I know you are a Beyonder, and I know that you are not someone I work with. If you were, you would have known exactly how to find my immediate manager. You emailed some random person in my office. Just because they have the word manager in their title, doesn't always mean they actually manage people. Then you ONLY referenced Beyond posts. If it was IT or HR, they would have seen Reddit, and I've accidentally clicked on some NSFW links which would have definitely came up.
How do I know that this special person tried to ruin my life? Let's see the topics that you did not need to bring up with my boss or had any relevance to your "point":
-Drug use
-Drinking and Driving
-ME QUESTIONING ABOUT FILING BANKRUPTCY???
-ME TALKING ABOUT POSSIBLY QUITTING MY JOB AND TRAVELLING?
Get fucked buddy. You weren't trying to alert my manager that I'm not working, you were trying to ruin my life.
Well luckily, there are kind people in this world. My boss stepped up to plate for me. She had to fight this battle for me all last week, without even telling me about it first, to keep me because I'm, "Too valuable and important. If *insert company name* was to lose this employee, they would be losing a great asset." So go fuck yourself Bobby Do-Gooder. All you did was create an awkward work place between me and the manager that I don't talk to anyways.
To everyone else, yes, I understand it's the internet that everyone always warns you about. Serious shit. I probably shouldn't have said where I worked online, but I'm open about everything. Everything said (aside from bankruptcy and my travel plans) my boss has already heard. She has me on Facebook, she sees the stuff I write.
No one needs someone to go out and try to ruin someones life like that. I don't care if you hate me, I hate lots of people online. BUT NEVER ONCE have I ever tried to make it personal. NEVER.
I really feel sorry for who ever did this. I will seek no revenge, nothing of that nature. What was done was done and you failed terribly at it. All I will feel is pity on your poor cowardly soul. I can't imagine what self esteem issues you have. You have to be the biggest loser of them all, to get THAT worked up over something I said online... Fucking ridiculous. You're an absolute joke.
To everyone that can agree with the top sentence, you are the gem's of Beyond. I will continue to carry myself in the same fashion I always have, I won't change who I am. It's been working out pretty good thus far.
I won't even seek out to have my name removed from the forum. I will under the request of my boss remove my work place. I'm not a coward. I will always stand behind my opinion AND my bullshit.
My name is Russ. Always will be. And people will always know me by that.